Day in day out all day long, every paper I flipped reports about how bad the situation is, every news channel on tv shows about how bad the situation is and every banking friend I talk to talks about how bad the situation is.

I had dinner supper with two office friends yesterday as we worked really late so walked over to Lau Pat Sat to eat. Throughout the two hours, the topics revolved around the crisis we are going through. I had a drink just now with two banking friends at nearby Rail Mall’s BlooiE (I like the place!). Throughout the two hours, the topics revolved around the crisis we are going through.

Till I finally said “Can we talk about something less depressing?” and started by sharing a joke about a recent fake LV story I heard from Charmaine. And then the mood turned at least less sombre. I hope all my RM friends can snap out of it. I don’t want to see, hear or read any of them in the news for suicide or something. From the way I see, it seems highly possible.

All the investors are blaming RMs for the losses they incur. I mean it is true that there are some rogue RMs selling to the elderly, illiterate and poor folks. But just because maybe it happened to some minority customers doesn’t mean majority RMs are like that. I guess its makes them feel better to simply find someone to blame. That’s so irresponsible!

Wake up lor! If you (highly savvy and sophisticated investor) just do selective listening on what you want to hear such as the high returns, the short tenure, the capital protection, don’t blame other people. When nothing happens and you get back your capital with your returns, you also complain so low, can do something else get more etc etc and never thank the RM. But when something happens and you get back lesser or nothing, you go bersek and start pointing fingers.

I do feel thankful that I’m not a RM now. I could be since Jan this year. There are two persons I will like to thank specifically.

Dear * and *

Once again, I will like to thank you for rejecting me. Else, I am in the same blackhole now. But luckily, I’m happily setting up a Q to open accounts for all the foreigners - welcome to Singapore!

Cheers, Linda

Though I told my close friends whom knew about it that I’m over it but somehow I’m still feeling inferior. I still can’t forget about what happened. The great damage will take a long time or maybe never to heal. I felt happy I’m here already sometime back but the feeling now strengthens to that I must have accumulated some good in my previous life to be doing this job instead of that job. And it might great timing to be going into that job next year, I hope.

Edited 17-Oct: A friend is currently in a sticky position because there was a news article today accusing him making some ‘insensitive’ remarks on selling products so I must be well-behaved! You never know who is lurking and any-o-how sia..

I wanted to continue to ramble about my work. But as I was bathing, part of it was ‘washed’ away and I feel better now. This morning was truly one of the worst days of my working life. I was so upset with myself and Bernard. I still am quite pissed with him but in landmark terms, its just a racket so I should give it. i.a.m.t.r.y.i.n.g. Need some time so maybe tomorrow.

I finally got my work under some control. I hate to go on leave sometimes coz the piled up work never seem to be worth it. And even when I am on leave, I am still being bothered by work. Is it me or the work? I wonder if I change to another job type or industry, will I feel the same way.

My shoulder pain is back. This happens when I get too tensed up. I was worried its cancer last year when the pain never seem to go away and my cousin died of cancer which started with muscle aches. Specially went to the doctor but assured me it will be gone after doing a demonstrated exercise routine. It did. Haha, I am a paranoid drama queen!

I’m like drowning in all my paperwork. It seems never ending. Its painful that the everything is so on your own and manual. I’ve like ONE thousand and ONE miscellaneous paperwork for stuff like business trips claims, taxi claims, courier claims; TEN thousand and ONE people to update from contact centre to branch staff; HUNDRED thousand and ONE sales templates to keep count such as C3, LMS, claims, assignments, referrals..

I left my office table in a mess at 11pm. Its irks me to see it in such a state as I’m a neatrophobic. I even brought home some to do after having dinner at 12.30pm. Its now 1.30am and I’m GIVING UP! And on top of being neatrophobic, I’m a preciseoaccurator so I will check between all the templates a dozen times to ensure its correct. I can only do these after office hours too coz I got to make full use of office time to call my potential clients.

All the rest during the last two weeks is gone. When I sat at my desk this morning, some colleagues commented how fresh I look. I felt that way too. But I don’t think they find me the same in the evening with the crazed look in my eyes.

We really need a temp clerk or something.

Note: I still love my job very much even with all my complains la.

As I total up my numbers for 3rd quarter at 5pm today, I realised I was two new accounts short to meet my KPI. I really need to thank Valerie coz she saved me and I finally made it – BIG THANK YOU VAL. All my hard work this quarter paid off. Though the money is not there anymore even after my KPI is met, at least it looks good for appraisal. The long-term plan is promotion and progression. So I’m going to relax thoroughly, rest well and enjoy my leave properly till end week. Its going to be hard work again next Monday onwards for the final quarter of 2008!